Hey, so I have been doing competitive programming since 2015, but I'm not committed to it, yeah, I enjoy my time doing it, but from time to time I feel that I'm not good enough so I quit for a couple of months, then I just made a new account and tell myself "Ok now I'm gonna start it all over again and with this ultimate plan it's finally gonna work", and it seems my plans never work xD

Anyhow, in 2019 I finally stopped, as I have started my new job as a software engineer and since then I was really busy in my work and I have no time to solve problems, but I was always thinking about competitive programming, even though software engineering is hell fun but I never felt that happiness and spark competitive programming gives me:(

I really want to return to competitive programming, but I'm afraid I'm gonna quit again if my plan failed for the thousand time, also I feel I'm kinda old now so it just too late, yes I tried a couple of times to return but it was just a matter of time, then I quit again due to the huge load of work "startup sucks" also I'm doing it alone so I have no one to motivate me.

So why I am writing this here? I really need some advice from people with the same problem as mine and they were able to solve it. And I decided it's time to ask for help and I couldn't find a better place than here.

Thanks.