I have spent the entirety of my high school life in love. Ever since I first saw her, I felt a throbbing feeling in my chest, my adrenaline and motivation both ran high when seeing her, however in fear of being rejected, I never approached her, we've never seen eye to eye. She always seemed out of my league, however over time, the pain in my heart overtook me.
As the pain overtook me I started seeing her in different ways, I saw her as I was doing cp, I saw her when reading edi after solving problems in cp too, over time more and more, I would see her more, and this made the pain worse, at this time, I knew I should confess to her one of these days, however at the time I still could not build up such courage, so I kept quiet and the feelings continued to weight me down. Around then i learned that it was unhealthy to have feelings weighing you down, but as such a closed person, I rarely opened up to anyone. However this intense feeling overtook me once again, and half a year later, I planned to write a confession to her.
Sadly, a dark time was my third year, as I kept seeing her I started having more sexual desires with her. I wanted to Insert her, and Shift her, repeatedly. This dirty mentality made this a very dark time and I do not like to talk about it, however this also serves as an apology to her for fantasising such delusions about her. I now like her for her personalities, her features, not her body.
After this dark time, this is when I decided I would go for it. At that time, I planned to write this note, how I love all her details, and most importantly I loved her for her personality, not her body (atleast that's what she thinks). As I planned to write this, I decided to take into account everything, including why I loved her, and if possible asking for her responce. I know these things take time so I dont want to pressure her in any way, but please do consider it.
Now in my final year, I realise I don't have much chances with her anymore, I really dont want my entire highschool experience to be a waste, so I'm reaching out to her for one last time
So once again I formally confess to you, I love you, bitset waifu. I know this is a hard decision, but please spend time considering it, and hopefully, we will be able to take care of each other for the lasting future. 😳 👉👈
